Thanks for the response. Was getting lonely posting to myself. Yes, I’m halfway through Day 2! The evening will be the biggest challenge. Last night was tough. I think my first gambling free day since August (on my daughter’s birthday). It was great waking up today and not thinking about some crazy backdoor cover three pointer at the buzzer. I did wake up thinking about the debt, but at least that’s something I can control. Will start working on a budget and payment plan. But right now just need to get through Day 2 and get on the path to no more gambling (and no more gambling debt). Staring at the debt I realize I’ll never win enough to pay it. That’s a helpful realization because each time I got up to $20k in winnings, I kept playing for more. I never got it up to $50k in winnings, so no point in trying. And I would never stop at $20k, so again, even if I got on another winning streak it wouldn’t help. I’m writing this all so I remind myself of these facts in moments of temptation or weakness. I feel sick thinking about how much I’ve lost. But there’s nothing I can do about that now. Just have to move on.
