Thank you Vera for sharing your story. It is a definite foreshadow of what is in store for me if I keep walking this path. More loans and credit cards have been circling my thoughts as I have good credit at the moment (miraculously I might add!)
I happened to be on a working holiday in Ireland in 2008/09 during the collapse of the Celtic Tiger. I recall people calling it the “Paper Tiger”. The only work I could find was as a barista at the Cork train station. Actually it was living here that my problem became apparent to me. I had to borrow money off my folks to pay rent a couple of times. The first time that had happened.
I definitely am trying to stop it here. I keep telling myself to forget the past, move on, that I can still be successful in life. Before I always managed to shrug off every ominous warning and gamble again. Praying that won’t happen this time!
There is so much to lose and so little to gain by gambling. I really do feel I am ready this time. It feels different this time. It feels as though I am finally taking the “right” first steps. I just really need to let go of my recent loss. If I can do that I think I might have a shot.
You’re very right when you say that all we have is today. I WILL get through Day 3 and right now that’s all that matters.