Thank you Velvet…I come to this thread and read your post every couple of days. I would get really down and cry and I would come here and read it again and again. It has been hard. Like time does not help. I miss my husband every day and I still can’t believe what happened. It seems unreal and the pain is very real. I know how pathetic it is to come here and basically not even have words to say because my situation is not changing. Maybe it is for better. That he left me. And maybe I am more free than most of the families here who are dealing with CGs. But I wish I wasn’t. I wish he let me fight for us. Oh God how I wish. And I know wishing and regretting and thinking about the past doesn’t change anything.
He responded to my message 2 days after I sent it. He said he wanted to respond sooner but that he didn’t know what to say, that I caught him by surprise. That was it. I want to message him I love him every day. And I am fighting it. He won’t say it back and he won’t respond. My marriage is over and it feels like I am dying inside.
Thank you for sharing your story it must have been hard. I am sorry you went through that and I am grateful for your kind words towards a stranger like me.
Compulsive gambling is manipulating with me too because it really made me think my husband was unhappy with me and that he just left me. I just remember the good things not the bad ones and most of the times I don’t consider the fact he had or he still has a problem. All I can think about it how he left me over a message and how I probably will never see him again.
I know there is nothing that can be done here anymore and I don’t even know why I’m posting. With all the people here who need help because they still have a CG in their life I am the last one here who needs advice because my CG is gone.
Love,
Peanut