[Callmecrazy]

Day 12 is going well. I’m pretty busy taking care of my horse. My day starts at 8 am when I leave for work and am not back home until 8 pm. I have had thoughts of gambling but no real urges. I know they’re going to hit me this weekend, but who cares? Let them. The toxins need to leave my body. That’s what urges are, toxins leaving the body.

I’ve been watching some documenaries on drug addiction (misery loves company) and when I see the withdrawals drug addicts go through, it makes me think I have it easy. I feel grateful gambling is my poison.

As for my debts, yes, they are a huge issue but all I can do for now is watch my spending (I don’t buy anything but the absolutely necessary) and hope for the best.