Thank you RG and Charles
I can’t even answer your posts because my internet blocker has just failed.
I feel incredibly nervous like I have an exam I’m unprepared for.
I also feel a bit relieved that I feel nervous instead of excited that I can now gamble on my phone.
I think maybe I have worked too hard at recovery and it evaded me for so long that I’m not prepared to give it up.
I’m not prepared to go back to the horrible old days.
When I put the blocker on my phone I needed it.
Since then I have gained a plethora of tools which I now have at my disposal. I am capable of making good choices for myself.
All those times I walked past the lottery stand- my phone blocker didn’t do that – I did.
All those times I could have nipped into a casino and didn’t – my phone blocker didn’t do that -I did .
I could easily have used my son’s computer if I really wanted to gamble. I guess it just I’m nervous because the stabilisers are off my bike
But I’m ok – I got this !