Thank you (((P))) for your kind post to me! Danny came to the city for the weekend as I had said I would go to the boat show with him. Everything was going swimmingly well, until Sunday. He mentioned that we would likely end up going to play the slots like we had done before, after a similar event. There is a casino right next door to the venue where the boat show was. I said that I did not want to gamble after the boat show, no way, no how! In the parking lot of the boat show Danny mentioned the slots a couple of times, which is intensely triggering for me. I told him to quit talking about the slots as it made me want to go. We walk into the boat show and I am having anxiety and feeling claustrophobic as there are tall boats, one right next to each other, and they all look extremely expensive. I had told Danny that I didn’t see why we were going to a boat show as we were not in the market to buy a boat as he doesn’t even know if he has a job, and the job could be in Edmonton, so when would he have a need to have a new boat. He thought we should consider buying a party barge so that we could take all the grandkids on the lake at the same time. I told him that it was not our responsibility to provide a boat for the grandkids and that their parents, if they wanted a boat could buy their own. I had so much anxiety at the boat show that I considered running out a door I saw marked as for emergencies only. We left the venue and Danny wanted to go look at motorhomes and I said I didn’t want to, as I just wanted to go back home. He criticized the amount of time I spend at home doing nothing, so I asked him to leave, as his plans were to leave Monday. He got angry and packed up his personal belongings and left to drive back to the country. The only good thing about all of this is that we didn’t end up at the slot venue. I pictured walking in, and then walking out without several hundreds of dollars and that kept me from gambling, and when I gamble, it’s not like the old days where, it didn’t trigger the urge to keep gambling. I need to get out of the rut of my life, and gambling isn’t going to help me do that. Carole
