Thank you P for your encouragement. I guess I am slower at getting there than most – but I do try to brush myself down, get up and try again as soon as I can. I try not to let a slip turn into a full relapse. Harry advised me one time on the helpline that a slip isn’t a full relapse and i have always tried to remember that .
I hAd it all set up with a “friend” to go to GA last week but in the end they didn’t want me there with them – and rather than be honest about it they picked an argument – we live and learn . This way I suppose they can pretend to themselves that they are right (as always). I have no idea what they were even arguing about but I have taken a big step back from them. I need to surround myself with people who are helpful to my recovery . I guess I learned that recovery is really a journey that we need to travel alone and we really shouldn’t depend on anyone .
I know you get a lot from GA. P, but I can imagine nothing worse for me – I find all that sharing stuff hard – and yes I also find the judgement of others hard too . However despite that I am going to try make it to a meeting soon – I guess you can’t knock it until you’ve tried it.
I’m so glad to read how well you are doing . I think about how people talk about working on our character flaws and I can’t imagine you have any – you are one of the kindest , most supportive people on here – your posts lift my day and fill with encouragement, determination and hope .
It’s day 8 for me p – I’m not going to remember days ( it kept deleting the c o u n t word ?) but somehow the never ending urges have subsided -i think the early nights help- I guess it’s difficult to achieve anything when we are constantly tired and I did most of my gambling at night when the rest of the family was asleep.
Keep well and thank you as always for your support .