Tonight I feel different , tonight I feel numb to my feelings and wants not sure why but tonight I have no urge and all I can think of is what is tmr going to bring .
I sometimes don’t want to think and let things happen in front of me and let the universe guide me .
I successfully reduce my credit limit on that card I had so I got no money to use that made me feel so much better as I paid most of it off this month and very proud of my self .
I haven’t spent allot of money this month either this goes to show that I am very sensible with money and don’t need allot and can live in my means . It is sad to think had I not gambled and racked my credit cards I would of used that money to go shopping and treat my little boy endlessly with gifts .
Today I noticed he likes cars and trucks so I want to buy him a truck next week . I hate day time tv as they got gambling adverts and my little boy loves it he sits there and watches it so cearfully , I keep changing the channels but they are everywhere , makes me sick.
Tmr is day 18 and I am so proud of my progress .
My online counselling starts in June cannot wait.