Thank you Monique. I appreciate all of this. I don´t think that the comments are harsh really at all and they are helfpul. It is more..well, the situation is…harsh! I think to myself that I am not so wrapped up in my husband´s life and well-being and then at the same time, I think that I am! Even if I am less than I was. I have removed myself a lot from the situation and the emotional turmoil, just by not physically being where he is. I don´t doubt his determination to stop gambling, but I know that I feel that it will be much harder than he seems to think it is. Of course, he hasn´t had any exposure at all to anything like this forum, all the information on the internet, or discussions in any way with other cg and so completely lacks that perspective. I have totally different information than he has, and well, just much much more of it. And he has broken my trust, I have not broken his. I just have to let him do his thing and see how it goes. And I have tried to do this for the past 6 weeks now and it feels hard to keep doing it, but I know it all still needs more time and I am not confident of my own confidence, so to speak. And my inner voice is quite confused, or just very wary at the moment and yet at the same time impatient to go back to life in Cuba and just to see…I obviously miss my husband and he keeps telling me how much he misses me and he never wanted me to go away, of course. But there is still so much that feels very hard. This site is very helpful, though. Thank you!
