Thank you Micky
I appreciate your support as I have always done over the years.
I think it is about 8 years I have been posting on here – and I am just starting week 8 in recovery .
It has been a long slow process but as Kin describes – if I add all the baby steps together I have come a long way .
What is different this time ?
As I mentioned in my last post I let no one stand in my way .
My bingo buddy can meet me for coffee is she wishes but I will not be made to feel guilty for not going to bingo. It’s a nice pastime for her – it’s an addiction for me .
I need to be selfish about recovery- I need to put me first and if others don’t like it – so be it – I now understand that I am as important as anyone else- and my recovery is as important !
And perhaps that is why I am now doing so well in recovery .
I’m not doing guilt for others’ issues- I don’t need permission to make decisions which are good for me or to explore options which are good for me . I don’t need permission not to attend bingo or a casino – it’s my choice for me. I don’t need permission to discuss different views on recovery. I don’t need to follow anyone else’s rules for recovery .
I have learned the hard way what works and what does not work for me . I find feeling put down has been a huge trigger for me – no more – I value myself too much to take on board the putdowns of others and I now realise that these are more about their own insecurities than me .
Week 8 here I come !
I have not gambled this year ! How good that sounds !