Thank you Lizbeth4
Ive made a plan to repay my debts. All bills and debts will be taken from my account automatically. I have cut up cards, I have to physically go into the bank. Though this is still easy it might slow down the process. I am carrying little money.
I dont feel like going into the world i just want to stay inside and never emerge. Ive caused this, i have to deal with it. I cant change what I’ve done. Im still shocked. I woke and thought its a dream and checked the account online to see it most definitely wasn’t. I feel sick and ashamed, i have so much guilt and regret. I will never understand how gambling has overpowered me to this point. I haven’t been able to stop. I am not someone who can gamble once and say oh ok well i wont gamble for another month. If i could do that i wouldnt be here. Gambling for me has no off switch at all until i am ruined. I can say now i am ruined. I can also say i want to change my life. I feel the lowest of lows. I feel pathetic.
Day 2
Courage