Thank you Lizbeth and Running Girl- you may remember me as Sad or Brave – I have changed my name several times as my journey has changed.
I am being quite selfish at the moment and writing mostly on my own thread. This contrasts with how I used to be on this forum . I wrote on just about everybody’s thread and often got few replies on my own thread – it contributed to my feeling of being unvalued – so just for now it’s me me me !
Today’s learning is brilliant – I have often hear about playing the tape to the end – what will happen if you gamble? how will you feel when you have lost your money? record this on your thread so you can look back and remember .
Nobody ever told me that this was just the B side of the tape .
The A side goes like “ how will you feel when you get to the end of the tape and you have cleared the kitchen?, How will you feel when you get to the end of the tape and you have taken that 20 minute walk? How will you feel when you have completed that hour of work you took home?”
How motivating is that ? I am learning that recovery doesn’t have to be all about self criticism, being criticised by others ( sorry some like to call it challenging lol) , self hatred etc .
Yes there will be low times when we are at a loss to fill the gap that gambling abstinence has created but we can play the A side of the tape ! We can choose an activity we enjoy or don’t enjoy , play the tape to end and know that we will feel better once we have completed it.
I am learning!