Thank you Laura – I saw you had posted and popped into group on the off chance you would be there-I think I fell asleep very fast after that . I would be really interested in reading that resource .
Geordie everything you say is so true .
I think I have two aces up my sleeve
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1. I know he money is gone and is never coming back and I accept that so it frees me to live a good life in recovery rather than punish myself for the past by depriving myself and my family with the new money which God will provide .i don’t need to get back to where I was – I need to live every day and be grateful for life .
2.I know the big win is never going to happen- because of the way I am . I totally understand why so many lottery winners end up destitute – as Laura describes it all to do with the chemical shifts in the brain- a normal relationship with money is no more .
I am having a “secret” trial run at a lower level- I am leaving work a few hours earlier. It is brilliant ! The evening stretches before me – there is no panic or rush – there is time for everyone to talk and be heard , to laugh and relax .
My mind is half made up but something is holding me back – it is that I am reminding myself not to be impulsive – think this through, give it time – the decision will still be there is a few weeks.
That’s it for this morning. Day 26 – not bad for someone who thought they could never stop .