[i-did-it]

Thank you Jen.
It is almost 1am. I am in a bad routine of staying up all night watching tv/gambling and sleeping during the day. Tonight the usual urges came and of course I tried to gamble.
My new Betfilter held up and the urge passed.

It has given me there breathing space to realise here is a pattern – late at night I get urges – so perhaps I need to go to bed earlier .
Recently I have been wakening in the late morning and gambling my casino “cashback” until it runs out , which sometimes can take hours .
My life is passing me by watching wheels spin.

When I try to sleep I still see them spin. When I relax I see them spin.
That’s my life – little teddy bears spinning on a reel and I so want to watch them spin right now .