Thank you Jappy and Charles
So I foolishly spent time last night trying to get around my blocker and my cancelled cards – how completely stupid – to gamble .
Best thing I ever did was get rid of my own debit card – just got my husband’s now and he will get a text to approve any transaction. I cannot gamble online no matter how much I want to.
When the flesh is weak it’s good to have a back up plan. I still have urges pretty much every day, but usually they are controllable .
There used to be a lot of discussion on here about “real recovery “. I’m not sure t really matters whether it is “real” or “fake” – so long as I am not gambling and cannot gamble .
I wish of course that the urges would go away and never come back –
Today I don’t feel so good – the aftermath of an over indulgent weekend – the stress of feeling over-whelmed by life, so many things I feel responsible for – so many wrong decisions.
Tonight my pay goes in – got a long weekend abroad to look forward to – I guess it is good – pay day used to fill me with excitement- the relief of having money after gambling the month before. Telling myself this month will be different when it never was.
I have been gamble free for 2018- not always due to will power. I’m
Not sure if it is possible but I am going to set my barriers even higher -I am going to continue to beat this horrible addiction. I am having my life back .
Onward and upwards