Thank you Geordie for your encouraging post . I am going to remember that prayer. I can’t change others but I can change how they impact on me . That is my choice .
Today as I was waking I knew I would not attend GA tonight – I got nervous about the long drive . What if I break down? My gambling addiction means that I have a very old car . No one even knows I am going there.
The nights are darker than a few weeks ago . So many reasons not to go but in truth it is not going to work for me to drive so far every week as winter approaches . ( you did say so Charles). Im not sure I’m ready to find a closer meeting .
This negative thinking must have had a knock on effect because then I didn’t want to write on my thread this morning- I try to write morning and night. It helps me stay focused. So I have just decided this is going to be one of those things that must be done each morning like brushing my teeth.
I am tired today – woke far too early .
Out of coffee .
Need to be super aware of how I am feeling and how this can impact on my attitude towards recovery.
Today is day 11- I will not gamble today .
Feelings come and go – recovery can be permanent .