Thank you for your post Monica .
I sometimes find I get so caught up in work I forget what I am actually working for – to provide for my family .
Of course when I was gambling I could have worked a quarter of the hours and still had the same amount of money .
I guess I will be playing catchup for the next number of years.
One thing that not gambling has made me realise is that I don’t have to forever climb the career ladder.
It is ok to stop and say this is where I am comfortable – this is the amount of time, stress and mind space I am going to give to this job. The rest of for family and myself .
What ever it was that I was searching for in my career , my gambling and any other distractions has been here under my nose all along .
Today is day 20- almost three weeks .
It hasn’t been all that difficult . The urges have been few.
I have not yet been tested by an urge which is like a juggernaut – I am hoping that by saying completely gamble free such an urge does not get the opportunity to take hold .
I have given up on the big win.
I have given up on winning back .
I know hard work and sacrifice – making the right choices , being less impulsive – I know if I do these things for a few years I will have a really good life .
I know what is important in life and it isn’t some big job title which I need to have an addiction of some kind to manage .
I am happy today a I know at last I am capable of making good decisions for the right reasons .
I am not going to say onwards and upwards – I am going to say keep plodding slowly , carefully and with purpose .