Thank you for checking in on me. I have not been doing very well. I went on a vacation and thought I was ready to stop but since I have been back I have done a lot more gambling and a lot more damage. I am pretty deep in debt right now. I feel like maybe I had to get to this very low point. I feel very tired of gambling and chasing right now. Today was day 7 of g-free, this time around.. I feel pretty good. I feel slightly tempted but strong. I am so very mad at myself for what I have done to myself. I know I can come back from it and that is what I am focusing on. Paying off my debt. As fast as possible. I am also just finally going back to work this week.
I have a lot going on in my life and a lot has been thrust on my shoulders in the last 2 years that I never asked for and wasn;t prepared for and I believe that is where this all started. I have a long road ahead of me but I really feel determined this time. I want to change who I am, not just the fact I am a non-gambler. I’ve lost who I am and I don’t like that. I am working on it, one day at a time.
Thank you so much for thinking of me. I have been away from this forum for a while. How are you??