thank you for asking, not doing so well actually. Tomorrows Christmas and although I’m still living with the ex I guess is what I will have to resort to calling him, it just doesn’t feel right. I’m going to be here, in this house that we picked out together, alone… on Christmas of all days. I don’t feel any more secure in his “we’re going to try and work this out, I haven’t given up yet” promises. I truly can say I’ve never been this heartbroken before in my life and I’ve been through a lot. I’ve never hurt this much before. Everyone keeps telling me to cut my losses, focus on me, that great things are sure to happen for me but the pain of all of this is so blinding all I see is me losing everything and having to start from the bottom all over again. Thinking about just taking a couple of p.m. pills and sleeping the day away tomorrow..
