thank you meghna. It’s hard, this is so overpowering for me and It took control of my life so bad. I’ve quit drugs before, alcohol, I’n so disciplined in the gym, with my diet, and this seems to be out of my control. I went to gamble this morning and I brought 1000. I was just trying to chase as always, it’s sick. I lost half of it before a security guard finally came up asked to see my id.. wow… -20k later they finally came and asked to see my id. He says sir you’re banned. I said yes thank you , I wish you would have recognized me -20k ago, it’s almost like they waited for me to lose everything for them to say something to me. Told them their secuirt system is a joke, whats the point of a Ban? Ok on one hand I’m glad he did recognize me today. Now I know I’m yellow listed, i can’t. Get in now. It just sucks now I have debt but I know it will get easier as time goes on. I hate this feeling, I feel so ashamed of myself for letting it get to this point,
how? It’s like I went into a trance. blackout mode and just lost all logic. Money had no value, now
i see it’s value when I look at the 10k I owe on like kf
credit, and 6k I Owe in visa.. with barely any in savings. This will be a long hard road ahead.. I appreciate your support and I hope we can beat this together… I really do .. I want my life back:(