thank you for the message. I relapsed yesterdsy and feel awful. I got back from a weekend which I spent too much money I didn’t have, and I figure I go try to win it back. I knew I shouldn’t have done it. I won.. I won the money back I spent, and I was super happy. You know what’s happened next, I think I can go back today and win more. I do win more, 1000$ in 15 minutes of bj. My mind says leave. My cf says stay. I stay and lose it, all 1000, plus the 2500 from yesterday. Plus another 1500 of credit. I feel sick. I feel like I knew u shouldn’t have stayed, I did. I know I should keep going to GA. I thought I was good again. I feel so ashamed. I feel likke such a loser. Worst part I haven’t told anyone. I used to tell my sister and parents, but my parents gave me $ to bail me out of some debt from gambling, and I went and blew it ongambling. I feel like throwing up. I can’t do this anymore. It’s so meased up. I can’t believe im writing this again. Sorry guys. let everyone down, myself, my friends and family, everyone here. I am a loser
