In response to the first question, my downfall is vlt machines, I live in Saskatchewan where we have them in every single restaurant and bar. There is no getting away over than completely staying out of all pubs bars and restaurants with the machines in them. I find that I play out of boredom, habit, and to escape the real world. I find happiness in chasing that win. I’m looking for other outlets where I can experience the same rewards minus the gambling aspect.
Secondly, I am not suicidal, in fact it’s quite the opposite.. the addict in my pushed aside the horrific guilt feelings in order to Continue with my addiction. I have felt that way in the past but this is different, this is a quest for a better more fulfilling life. I think I’m just finally ready to admit defeat and move forward.
I have been a drug addiction, kicked it. After I lost my husband I drank for two years straight, kicked that too, this is one of the last and most destructive vices to go,, so I am optimistic that I will succeed, yet at the same time terrified that I will fail.
