Mixed week. Started ok and mid week had headaches and nausea for two and a half days. Apparently another bug so I heard on Friday going round at work. Took a day off work. Thursday and Friday felt exhausted. Had the work Xmas do Friday evening where only a few people went not wanting to spend the 50 quid each for dinner. Left early at 9pm as very cold and awful tired.
Today I went to my acupuncturist and found it relaxing. He says heart is ok but my pulse is rapid on only minor exertion so we r working on the cigarettes for the New Year. He gave me some herbs for the tum and energy as this morning I just felt exhausted. Went to the posh shop. The lady in there is such a good saleswoman. Said she could dress me as I am on a mission to become classy and change the way I dress. Bought 4 items at a fair few bob. I walked out of there feeling energised and like a million dollars. Got home to all hell breaking loose. My son and my grandsons had had an awful row and said things that hurt each other. Gave my grandson a big hug and my son called their mum. They had waited three hours for my granddaughter who ended up turning back and going home. Tempers were very frayed. My peace did not get disturbed throughout. Their mum surprised me with her emotional maturity and all is now calm with the boys watching tv. My son felt like he was losing his children.
Yesterday was the one year anniversary of going to my gp saying I wanted to commit suicide. A lot has changed in that year. I am grateful for recovery each and every day.
