Thank u Monica for ur post – thats day two done. I am feeling really positive – woke up and first thought is to get out for a walk- I feel I have had a real mind shift –
I was promised a cash-back by a casino online. It kept the addiction so alive – it also made me feel i had money coming and I spent on the strength of it . I sat in ga and I went to groups here all the time knowing I couldn’t stop til I got my cash back- it really hooked me but of course that was the whole purpose of it .
When it was time to get it, they were so reluctant to hand it over, and when they did it was bonus money that had to be played 40 times and not a cash back at all.
However, it was enough to rope me in- and get me to part with a lot of money. It also was illuminating – every time we hand money over to any casino we are being “cheated” as the odds are stacked against us. As people with a gambling addiction we are cheating ourselves because even if we win we will never cash out or keep our money cashed out for very long.
More than that – we are cheating ourselves out of everything we could and should have in life – including our peace of mind!
I have set up a direct debit for savings – I am working extra hours now and would like something to show for it- because I am so scared that direct debit will bounce it has made me want to be extra careful with my money . Who would have thought saving could be so motivating ?
That’s about it – feeling really positive about the future