Terrible flashback today. Talked it through with my husband. We had to use an ATM. How do you spell DejaVu?
I always stood right behind him at the ATM when we were gambling. (I needed my money right away). We were at the grocery store this time. At least that is productive.
I told him I had a really bad moment. He said he knew it. He said he felt the same urge too. We talked it over. He believes that because we have been going to the casino for so long it is imprinted on our minds. He said he has thoughts as well, but forces himself to see the craziness that we have been through, are still going through.
I can’t say I have been having bad urges, but to be honest that is probably because I am totally preoccupied with money. I have become a financial contortionist.
My husband held my hand in the drive today and prayed for us both. Prayed that God would give us strength to keep on track and then he prayed for a miracle for our financial problems. I adore this man. 23 years married and he still shocks me to the core sometimes.
So we were in agreement in prayer and I believe that where two or more are gathered….God is with us. He is my higher power and I am handing this worry over to Him.
I am so happy to have found GT. This is a wonderful forum and the people here are quickly becoming very dear to my heart.
