Just a quick update before I read in bed for a bit (probably will only get a few pages till I fall asleep).
Have been tempted today! I think my optimism in life is part of my problem. I seem to always think I will be lucky! I convince myself that it will happen. So as a result today when I got back from work I had convinced myself that if I made an account with a online bookies that I hadn’t self excluded from that it would be red and red 2 bets and money would be all back! Whole thing forgotten!
Sadly reality is that I’m usually wrong and it’s usually the opposite to what I convince myself and would be a few months pay checks out of pocket in my niave attempt to win back (chase)!
Anyways I’m gonna read my book which I wish I chose on my terror night where I admitted I had my problem after woods. I chose gambling….NOT TONIGHT!