take a deep breath RealQuiet. You can stop. You just need to do some of the things your addiction doesn’t want you to do. Have you closed that gambling account yet.
Every morning you wake up and promise yourself that you won’t gamble? Great, then remove the opportunity to gamble.
There is an old saying – actions speak louder than words, I too made those no gambling promises, sometimes i even meant them! it wasn’t until i started taking actions though that I was successful.
So what actions can you take? Close that account? Restrict your access to funds, as I did it suggests? Get to a Gamblers Anonymnous meeting?
I know the debts will be overwhelming but there are a lot of optiuons around these days regarding the finances. Options from repayment plans through to bankrunptcy, with a lot in between. Get local expert advice and you will be able to get those finances to a manageable position.
I am sure there would be someone at your local GA meetign who would have had to sort finances out as well, it comes with the territory! They could point you in the right direction to get that advice.
A question I always ask in groups is – what can you do differently? It usually turns out to be something our addiction doesn’t want us to do.
Read the other threads here, you will see the sort of things that have helped others stop, which of those things can you apply to your own situation?
Keep posting and let us know what actions you are taking to make your next bet less likely.