[Callmecrazy]

Making plans for today. The past week I’ve been tending to my horses and will do this today. Every moment I spend with them are moments without an urge to gamble. I feel mornings to be much harder on me than evenings. I wake up tired and experience thoughts of gambling until I get myself going. Whereas evenings are the end of the day, I can easily shut myself down, watch something and go to sleep.

I’m determined to get the gambling bug out of my system and if I still want to gamble, say, 6 months from now, so be it. At least I know it’s me making the decision, not the disease.

Today is day 8 and I will not gamble today.