So I have different little bits of independent work I do … and my intuition has been telling me some financial success is in store for me this month. Well the first part of April has shown that as quite true.
I even watched a youtube video of someone advocating how to deal with sudden success (because it can ruin people). I think it can be a rush of dopamine and deeper temptations can open up.
This month is looking successful … so i’m writing here because I now gambling is going to pop up in my head soon and say “why not celebrate?” … But in reality success outside gambling should be celebrated with yet less gambling.
I have to keep writing here. I have to keep doing what makes me successful (not gambling, not putting on random trades, not sneaking in unnecessary looks at markets I don’t belong in). Perception can go out the window with sudden success … I’ve watched people ruin their lives or become altered personalities for it … even small bursts of it.
I don’t want to do that this month. I want to check myself and remind myself I’m human and am vulnerable and need to be aware of my risk side of things (gambling always numbs and has a “white out” effect on my perception of risk or what can go wrong …).
The voice of gambling always pushes too much and too far anticipating ever increasing rewards instead of pulling out every time. So with my independent business work outside it I’m reminding myself here to be protective and mindful of my openings.
I notice I’ve been holding out/procrastinating a bit tonight because I feel a buzz from some financial success from stripping gambling down … hard to shut off that drive to want to either be lazier or euphoric …
Actually lazy euphoria is a great description of it … gambling in the winning phases (or the spike wins outside of gambling that create deeper temptations to gamble) truly promote sloth and euphoria. Suddenly hard work doesn’t seem important. I have to remind myself I’m not doing this to avoid work/be unhealthy or lethargic.
Now’s a great time to practice singing, prep up some of my taxes/other paperwork to take care of, connect to my breathing/senses strongly and drive myself forward on solid ground.
The buzz of sudden success, just like the hurt of abrupt failure, can be intense and very distracting. So today I’m reminding myself that that’s exactly what it is — a distraction.
Stay on track — stay focused on the same healthy good actions that create success and don’t let success lead to gambling and impulsive moves.
I’m so grateful to all of you. Let’s keep going <3