Its your time now forget what happen its time to move forward, Yes the voice in your head is your mind programmed to set you up. The habit formed within the internal hardwired programme of your mind. key focus now is to rewire and refocus read more on this forum and spend more time researching methods of eliminating that habit.
Apply yourself to give your self a well deserve treat for being positive about your life.
help yourself to self recovery keep this journal active make it your #1 priority each day you are alive.