Dear Bettie,
like the serenity prayer says, “….serenity to accept the things we cannot change, courage to change the things we can…..”
look like you have these areas in your life to work on with regards to health, Jen, mum, work , your addiction and finance. They are already more than a handful and a source of big stress, pain and anxieties in your life.
Please stop all the other self destructive acts immediately!
One day an uneducated elderly man surprise me with this wise saying,” When you have a problem, you don’t create another problem to make it a bigger problem. ”
Stop seeking relief from the slot machines and alcohol now and start your ODAAT recovery today.
When you talk about not telling the rest in GA meeting, it was obvious it got something to do with your pride and ego, it is not a sign of weakness to be honest and admit our wrongdoings, infact it takes strength and courage to admit what has happen and you need your sponsor in GA to help you with Step 4, 5. Time to work on your honesty, open mindedness, willingness in Step 1,2 and 3.
You know what you need to do. Start today.
It is time to heal now.
With love
Kin