Finding it hard to believe that I only posted over two weeks ago, maybe because so much has happened since.
As you all know I moved interstate and starting a new job working in my brothers business. And it has been fairly good, working with your brother defiantely has it challenges. I am enjoying what I am doing as I am finding it very challenging. Honestly I have no idea what I am doing or even how to learn the simple skill sets to do my job well. Really out of my own comfort and yet in retrospect I can handle it. What has been proven to be extremely difficult is living with my brother and his family. His wife is a lovely person but of late (something I always suspected) is that she isn’t as “nice” or as “trusting” as she seems. So I have had to take a step back and play my cards really close to my chest. Since moving here I have felt like nothing but a nanny, cooking nearly all the time and looking after the kids while they go out on a daily basis. And they aren’t the cleanest people, wake up literally every day to a mess in the kitchen and it is mainly the adults making a mess and not cleaning it up.
I have been thinking about moving out of home but living in this city is expensive and I can’t afford it at this stage. My only option would be to go back home and live with parents and that is not an option for me. I need to talk to them and hopefully that goes well. It definitely has made me think about cg and how much some extra cash would help to get me out of this situation. But cg was what got me here and I am never going back. I am over 2 months clean and I am proud of myself, no one is going to drive me back there.
I really needed to vent, thanks all.