Hi Seanraj,
I am a new member and have just read through all of your posts from Day 1. You are an inspiration and it fills me with joy to see how well you are doing. I find fallouts with my wife are my most dangerous triggers. Best to remove yourself from the situation and take a long walk or listen to some music. The frustration you have is just a feeling. Acknowledge it’s there and accept that we cannot control other people. She has a right to be angry and you have the power to decide how that affects you. I am learning to separate me from my mind. You are the soul that is behind the mind. we cannot allow our happiness to be dependant on things we cannot control. That is the ego talking. Do not look to roulette to solve an internal problem. Sit with anger and frustration. Accept that it is a part of life that will always be there. You have had so much going well for you. Don’t let this affect the inner peace that you currently have. I hope this helps.
P.S Your progress has inspired me to kick this habit once and for all. You are an inspiration