Hi Lizbeth4,
That was why I relapse many times in the past, I was feeling empty and I had tried to self medicate with slot machine.
The more I focus on the emptiness, the more discontented and unstable I become.
Today I learn to be grateful for the emptiness and boredom that gambling free days has brought me in comparison to the despair, agony, disappointment, stress and debts that gambling has given me.
I am safe today because I was able to focus on the all the good things in life that I feel staying gamble free has given me. I need to stay focus!