Welcome Stephie
Focus on what made your four days and press restart. Yes relapse happens no doubt about that been down that path many of times.
Now it time to start rewiring back your mind to begin each day a new. Renew mindset to self recovery.
Stephie seek counsel therapy speak to someone whom you trust abt this habit. Be honest. Be open minded. Please attend GA meetings in your area.
What help me after 5yrs in the habit is that been reading people testimonies on this journal forum for three before i had lost 6k . I made my mind up not only that the health was poor as well. So consider your pro and cons of being free from this gamble.
It is getting back your life
Keep journaling on your progress
