Hey Buddy,
So good to hear you hanging in their and getting back on the horse. I can imagine how much its eating at you about you did with your grandparents inheritance. What you did was not right, but you do need to forgive yourself that is going to be something that will help you get stronger. I stole over three thousand dollars from my dad by stealing his cheques and fraudulently signing them and I did it more then once. But I was going to pay him back so it was ok (that was my thinking), so I sort of know how you feel.
Continue being brave and courageous. You have your whole life ahead of you to make good decisions. My addiction started when I was 26 and I cant reclaim that time back but I can make the best of what I have now. I truly believe in you and believe that you can come out of this a true winner. Just one day at a time 🙂 today marks my 6 month of being clean. It isn’t easy but its much better then gambling, anything is better then gambling.
Chin up.