You wrote: “I feel so desperately alone sorting out everything.”
That struck a chord with me. I know when I was in debt and worrying – I felt that I had no-one to turn to. In fact a couple of friends did lend me money when I was really desperate and I paid them back when I sold the house, but that didn’t stop me from FEELING that I was alone … I guess it’s back to feelings and thinking again.
You did really well in thinking your way through the situation and you know you can do this again when the feelings come up and threaten your gambling sobriety.
I really enjoy your posts.