My condolences on your loss of a dear friend. It is so difficult to find words at a time like this. It brings up memories for me of the loss of people close to me. I know how painful that is – but I also know that you will move on from it, looking after your loved ones like your granddaughter.
I know when my marriage ended I wanted to go on a gambling binge even though I had been gf for around 5 years. But I thought – I am in pain now … why would I want to put myself through more pain? So I got as much support as I could from friends, counselling, chat rooms etc and eventually got through.
I will be thinking of you tomorrow. Go well.