So sorry Murr! I feel your pain. I have done the same too many times to *****. You had lots of clean time. Be proud of that. I know oh to well the feeling of wanting to stop yet wanting to get our money back at the same time. Forget about the money. It’s gone. I know “easy for me to say”. When I look back I have turned from debt free to a relapse that cost 1000.00, than thousands, than tens of thousands chasing the original 1000, than time away from gambling to clean up the mess only to repeat the cycle!! Do not be embarrassed you have a sickness just like so many of us here. You can and will get past this. Try to forget about it yet remember it the next time you want to gamble. If that makes any sense. I am glad you came right back and your x is taking you to GA. You are in my thoughts and prayers and you can and will beat this.
