So some time passed and I finally started getting over the shock of losing such a huge amount of money. Payday is next Friday and I am just about getting by. I was In the process of closing all betting accounts, I had one final confirmation email to send to william hill that I admit I never got round to. In my wisdom, I thought, what’s another £10 on the roulette machine. Why did I do that? Why am I causing so much pain for myself?
The worst thing possible could’ve happened with that £10 deposit. I actually won £2500 and talked myself into walking away at that point. This was on Friday night, so it would be about Tuesday before it actually reached my bank account. I then started getting into that dangerous way of thinking, telling myself that maybe I could actually win back that lost £6000. So I come home tonight and I reverse the withdrawal and low and behold it’s gone.
Where do I go from here? What do I do? I don’t know how to battle this and it’s causing me so much pain.