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I continue to do the opposite. I gave any surplus cash I have this time to my 89 years mum to buy whatever she like, I choose to do this before I lose the opportunity and regret next time. I did not keep the money on me to fuel the fire inside to gamble or drink, the thorn continue to be in my flesh.

I have a little more money after the gamble. I used the surplus to reduce my credit card debt by 10 percent.

I am back to normal situation and taking one baby step at a time, one day at a time now