Dear diary,
felt tired more than usual on Thursday.
It was a sign some thing was not right
In the past, I never thought I was falling sick, I would think that it is one of those bad days.
I will turn to alcohol and slot machines to fix my feelings
thought watching and occasional punt on a football game can also be relaxing
I actually only need to be patient and be still for a few days but I was lacking in these areas in the past.
By the time I realized what was really happening, it was too late, the damage was done.
This time, come Friday, it was obvious and I notice I had flu and fever. If I knew I am sick, I will see a doctor and take medicine, rest and sleep as much as possible
If I am sick, alcohol, slot machine and going to a football match is not going to cure it. In fact numbing my feelings with alcohol cover up the real cause, I wouldn’t know I am falling sick until I sober up.
I am thankful for the patient and awareness.
it kept me safe.
In the past, I thought I was doing the right thing trying to fix my feeling in moment like this, I was wrong in the end.