I was feeling really tired and down for the past few days, it looked like I am suffering from a downward mood swing. This is so common for people with depression, I remember what it was like. I did a reality check of my thought, feeling and emotion and there was no major wrong in my life. I was still grateful and contented. I am thankful about my current situation. I continue to be hopeful. I did not wish for any drastic change to my life, but that didn’t change the way I feel when I wake up. This is recovery in action. I did not turn to alcohol, slot machine, sports punting, sex and “food!!!!!” for self-medication, relief and escape. I choose to rest and wait for this feeling to pass, it will go away eventually. I did not need to do foolish thing to change the way I feel. That was not the case for many years in the past, I feel that it was wrong to feel bad and try to change all that. This kind of situation gave me the perfect excuse to press the panic or self destructive button.
