Seven weeks completed .
49 days .
I have urges sometimes but nothing like I had at the start.
Money is not plentiful yet but in the near future I hope to be able to relax- every time I get a little savings a bill popsup .
I guess it took me longer than seven weeks to get into this mess- it will take a lot longer to get out of it .
I look forward to when I can have money behind me – the kind that gives you a little security.
I am so grateful to everyone on here for their support – staff and clients . This really feels like my time
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This time I have been strong – I have let no one stand in my way – I have let no one knock me off course.
Sometimes you have to be really selfish about recovery and if others don’t like it – then that’s really their issue.
I am away and I don’t have to worry about the bank statement arriving when I get home – in the past I heg had 150 mile round trips to sneak home and get them – wow how deranged was I?
I am thinking that I also might give up alcohol – I have never been one of those people who could take one or two and stop. (Although I can sometimes ). Unless I make a huge effort I just keep wanting more and more . Many of my friends are the same but maybe it’s time for a change .
I want to feel clean and alcohol makes me feel like gambling did – Kinda guilty and dirty .
I want different things for the future . I want peace , no regrets and happiness. I have been blessed with a lovely family . I have been blessed with a good job.
I need to put these things first.
Week 8 starts tomorrow .
Onwards and upwards !