Dear diary
I made a decision during a 40 minutes quiet time with my Higher Power, I am not attending the support group meetings in One Hope Center ( Christian organization), I shall trust God and pray to Jesus to lead me.
I used their support group meeting for its therapeutic effect in releasing the garbage and negative energy inside me, it is especially comforting and helpful for a new comer.
The new comer is the most important person in the group, I am not going to rob them of the help they so rightfully deserve, I don’t think it is fair to the newcomer who need it more than me, .
It is selfish, self-centered and self-seeking if I continue to remain there. It is time to move on. Let‘s see where this will lead me, there are many positive things I can do to replace this meeting, I can pray, do my step work, exercise or simply attend other support group meetings.
My recovery is not in line with their belief, they do not believe in recovering people like me going to other support groups to strengthen my safety net. They are concern people like me will be a bad influence and confuse the newcomers.
I have to carry my own cross, not them. I will have to use this opportunity to get closer to my God.