Hi C933,
I understand exactly what you’re going through because I ran these scenarios in my head for many months before I decided to make things right and come clean with the people who mattered most to me. I believed I would neither receive or deserve help after embezzling, and it was the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do. Hurting and disappointing the people I most admired was one of the most painful experience in my life.
I accepted the fact that I couldn’t control what anyone would feel, say or do. Being the pragmatist that I am, I also prepared for the worst-case scenario. I was completely willing to pay for my mistakes. But by trying to fix it on my own, I’d become my own worst enemy.
You asked for advice about telling your family and I only have the following to say: Don’t wait too long. You’ve made a good start here, with people who know exactly how frightening it is to admit to letting yourself down and letting others down. You’ve hit rock bottom and you are ready to make things right. In order to do that, you have to clear the path by speaking about your problem as honestly as you can to the best of your knowledge and understanding. It’ll be alright, just tell them what happened. Start with the person(s) you trust most in your family. Who do you think you could tell first? Start with them when you feel you are ready.
Good people make mistakes, C, just try to find it in yourself to accept you are human and need help.
Feel free to let us know your thoughts and concerns. We’re here to listen.
All the Best,
Sirena