The relief has been very real, enormous weight lifted off my shoulders but more lifted from my mind. My mind and my eyes have been so narrow and closed off for years, now that I’ve admitted everything i’m not focusing on the same shit cycle of gamble, lose money, be depressed, lose job, gamble more to replace a wage, lose more, feel more depressed…..so on. All of that crap is kind of taking care of itself with the fact that I now have a plan which is the programme. In the meantime it’s allowed me to begin to open eyes to what’s going on around me, spending time with my partner and daughter etc. Huge relief mate and something all Compulsive Gamblers have to do if they are to have any hope…..come clean, tell all, clean the slate to allow yourself any chance of having a fresh start.
Just checked, not quite 4 weeks. Last time I gambled was July 7th….nothing since, no immediate plans to gamble and i’m coping fairly well. Now I know it was July 7th I’m going to track the days moving foward, one day at a time and since I’ve obviously got the compulsive gene I might aswell make an obsession out of things like this and also in the future, if I am to have any further addictions then I would choose Saving money as my next habit.
That’s something that will be so important for my quality of life moving forward, learning to watch sport for the love of it, like I always did when i was younger. Not watching sport and getting stressed as the minutes tick by and my money is at risk. I’ll always have a keen interest in footy, Boxing, MMA, and even things like, golf, tennis…most sports casually.
Please tell me there is a way we can watch Mcregor vs Mayweather in there??? I DO NOT wanna be missing that fight, it may be a farce but I want to see it.
Your advice and posting on here has definitely helped myself, I would suggest how active you are on here is helping a lot of the others and obviously keeping your positive mindest ticking for your own benefit too.
I’m actually starting as early as next Monday 7th August due to some rescheduling. Sounds like i’ll see you in there end of August which is cool.
Hopefully keep eachother motivated and if you’re up for doing some sports or fitness then it’ll be good to have other people for that too.
The lack of phone calls home is my main concern but I understand it’s necessary.
Keep up your good work, stay gamble free, just another day in the gamble free office…..easy money, that you actually keep.
KStep