Thanks Charles great advice , second day now and boy it was a very difficult one, once Bill’s and debts had gone out of my bank and the fact payroll couldn’t change my bank details over until the following month so the money went in mine for the last time and as u say once I had paid everything the urge to gamble was huge, the urge to sneak some of the money I was about to hand over to my dad was huge but I resisted I dont even know how it was surreal.
I haven’t been able to exclude myself from my local bookies yet as I say its obviously like a community and it’s a big step for me but I know it’s one I must do to win this battle as I could lapse anyday now.
Hitting the fitness is taking my mind of things and setting goals as well as ploughing more time into activities with my sons. I dont play scratch cards but how random that my brain is now trying to fo us on these anything to have a gamble.
My dads got my money now I literally have money for fuel for work purposes , I feel great but also sometimes scared it’s like I’ve lost a friend. But onwards and upwards thanks for the support.