Dear diary
Guess this is a sign that some thing was not alright. I need to work harder to focus on my Higher Power, guess I was not doing enough lately, because when things get uncomfortable and painful, I become distracted and switch to focus more on self and less on my Higher Power.
I should be thinking of my Higher Power more and myself less. The heat and the lack of sleep altogether done its job and expose my weakness.
Despite all that, there are reasons to be grateful, all thanks to Vera for the reminder…
I remember many many times in the past, I had wish that everything was just a dream when I woke up from my sleep after I had gamble but unfortunately many times, the truth was very painful, all the damage was done and the destruction is everywhere.
I wish that I could turn back the clock. I regretted my action so much that I would do anything if I was given a second chance to change all that.
I have that rare and valuable “Second Chance” to do things right now.
Just for today, all I have to do was simple, just stay clean and sober.