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Dear diary
I nearly risk the most important thing to me, the trust and relationship I work very hard to regain. My mind was telling me to do it today, I feel like doing it and have a desire to do it but my heart was not very sure about it, I am very afraid that I would regret this decision very quickly and it will be too late for me to turn back.
I choose to ignore my thought and went to sleep. When I woke up, the feeling was gone.
If I am not gambling, I will not have this problem. I will not gamble with money I do not have, and I will not borrow to gamble. I will not have new and unmanageable debt.
If I am not gambling, the little I have will be sufficient for living expenses.